Saturday, 19 February 2011

Master and Slave

My dear friends and family would very often tell me that i am clever/knowledgeable/resourceful/creative despite my short attention span. I beg to differ. I can't do what they think i am capable of without the internet. I think without the internet, i would still remain the fragile little dumb kid.

I am the way i am today because the internet has created 2 alter egos out of me. I am immensely proud of the boundless abilities they enable me to execute. I shall hereby introduce them to you.

Master of Copy and Paste
Slave to Wikipedia 

What would i do without the internet? 

Selective Mutism

I love to talk. I love to talk in the company of people i love. I rattle off with full-blown passion about how i feel about issues, give my most honest opinions and then much too often, i discover that no one is listening to me. No one even knows when i talk. I admit i threw a fit on several occasions when pettiness got the better of me. It sucks balls when i give my best and no one hears a single word.

I can't help it if my voice is soft. I can't help it if i mumble. It takes a lot of effort to raise my voice loud enough for people to hear me. And i really hate it when people try to read my lips as i speak. So, what is the solution to this? SELECTIVE MUTISM.

Shutting up is the best way to get out of sticky situations. It is also an intelligent way to pretend you know nothing when you know just about EVERYTHING. Speak only when you're spoken to. Empty vessels make the most noise. I am learning everyday from shutting my trap and opening my ears and eyes. It's not easy because being human, we are inclined to gossip and make destructive comments about matters that are none of our concern.

These days i shut my trap whenever i can. Sometimes people forget i exist, which is a good thing because i really don't care if i am forgotten. I may not be very wise but one who talks too much is a bigger fool than one who holds his tongue.

It is so easy to let a comment, casual remark or judgement roll out of our mouths. But why do we say things that we can't take back? As i write this post, i took a good look at myself and realised that i have said some really mean things about people. I do not have the right. This is something i have to change. If i want people to respect me, then i have to learn to respect others first.

"The best time for you to hold your tongue is the time you feel you must say something or bust."
Josh Billings